Sunday, October 30, 2011

Ma No Name: In search of a name


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Mano

Hand that is Mind that is Heart
Hand that is Heart that is Mind

Took Hari off end
Took the Stealer of hearts and minds away
Given to me by one who stole mind
Ma Ma Ma my heart flew out to her
Enchanted till no I was left
Till I found Courage
She said
Ma No More
No Name
Return to Voidname
Where I started long ago
Back to the beginning before the Kathy
With strong bac k
Can still feel her tightly fitted wood planks forming the hull that I stood on, keeping me a float through the long journey of my youth.
And yet I now know underneath her belly, the dark deep waters below her and there is no returning to Kathy after that.
From where do I come?
Who am I?
I have always been searching for you that I am
Sipowicz
Still protects my back
Ancestors of Lithuanian decent
Hands of the earth
Devotees of nature
I return to that tree from the witch that all springs forth
From the spring bubbling beneath
In the mud where I was conceived before America was even born
When rivers flowed to oceans
And squirrels could run across continents on tops of trees
Rocks that have tumbled great distances have made me.

I release this cord from Ma to Me and fall through dark space
Fear of this death had paralyzed me from all actions
Till I was death
Not death of release into creation
But death that walks and pretends to be alive
I had broken this cord before
How many more mothers will I destroy!
Daughter cursed to fulfill mother’s martyrdom
Separating from her becomes seed of her slow death
Traveling from her nose receiver of breath to eye of truth to Cancerous mind
She withered into the witch I new her to be
Only visible to this daughter
Taught to love through denial
What Love is this!

Love wants to flow through wide riverbed mouth open to receive thee
Love I am heart hand full of courage on deck and bellow she travels holding strong handed staff of her witchery ancestors tree her mission to free the chains of mothers and daughters through these thick legs nipples ripe with milk to feed lovers of lost love nectarines ripe delights
In this bed named
In this body named
In this heart named
In this mind named

Whhoo?

So empty yet full am I
Where do I begin separate from all this stories
Is there a name that stands separate and yet connected yet free yet secure to all of you that is me that is youme

In this bed river I become flow through
Whhoo?
All of youooo
eye
mee
ooo
sounds come together to form a word imbued with meaning
A word that can hold yet pushes forward to become
A river made of grey stone, yellow sand, green plants and blue water

Hold yet pushes forward to become
Pushing, looking for a way
Spiraling around
Heart becomes redfull
Anchor here in this name that beats through all obstacles to become
Life   

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