Where i moved from: inside & out

     I lived in this home with my life partner for nine years.  It sat on a ridge looking over the city of Santa Fe.  It was a refuge from the world for us.  Also a kind of hermitage to recover from the chaos we experienced while traveling on tours and serving our guru, Amma.  This home holds for me a time of creative death.
     We separated in 2005, it took five more years to move out of this home.  During those five years the expansive views started to teach me how to make peace with my internal void.





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Self Play photos #1

First time I really picked up the camera I was in a depressed mood after a summer romance ended.  I think in the back of my mind was the memory of a friend saying how he liked digital cameras because he didn’t have to be patient and hold still for one shot, it was now about capturing motion.  So I stayed in my bed, which is where I often am when depressed and just started shooting continually as I rolled around and posed.
This has continued to be a useful creative outlet in my darkest moments when this body doesn’t want to move and my emotions are ruling my life into self-destructive mode, not creative life mode.  This act ended up being one of several pivotal moments of actually choosing life = art after over 10 years of what felt like creative death.

photos taken Sept. 2009





here are the photos with some Sinéad O'Connor for dramatic effect (or drama queen).

Self Play Photo's #1 with music from Mano Sipowicz on Vimeo.